Friday, October 28, 2005 

I'm sort of dumped

My cyber boyfie sort of dumped me *sniff* *sniff* *sigh!*

LIFE GOES ON!!!

5:32 PM | |

Monday, October 24, 2005 

LOVE QUEST

Cherished, beloved, one among many
You who God has ordained
Mine abundance and goodness to share
Out of hiding - surface!
Your radiant countenance avail.

Moments of cherish abound
Promises of cool and scented dreams
Nectar and honey a pot overflowing
In companionship to be harvested
Life's treasures to share.

A gift is only such when received
With pure grace mine offered
Life's graceful dance performance awaiting
God's plan a fulfillment to come
A union of blessedness and bliss pending.

6:00 PM | |

Sunday, October 23, 2005 

COME ON...

Life, if there's a way to court you
Make me know of your desires
That I can win your soothing side
Ever so cool, calm, fragrant and refreshing.

Peace of mind my quest
Sense of accomplishment my goal
Harmony my soul desire
May I drink from your sweet waters.

8:53 PM | |

 

EVENTIME

Eventime so cool
Birds to their nests return
Humans to their shelters
God's child in the house
Reggae 24/7 not inspiring
Kubamba nostalgia lingers.

Better count my blessings
For worse days may abound
Crosses and cares aplenty
A smaller cross today's than to come
Praises are never to cease
For life itself's a gift.

8:39 PM | |

Friday, October 21, 2005 

I'm determined to survive

There's this fear of rejection and that is one the greatest fears I have. It keeps me from trying out many things in life. I know it so well from personal experience as it happens to me many times. I sometimes try doing things so as to fit in and gain some acceptance. Recently when I was experiencing that well known phenomenon (which by the way has become like the order of the day for me), I decided to go to the beach and be alone by myself. It was sort of getting dark and as I saw ..... what was I going to say........yeah as I sat there feeling all the loneliness and sense of un-belonging, I thought, maybe this was God's plan of making me listen to him. I tried to listen to God and maybe He chose not to speak that evening. However, I told Him what was in my heart. I went home feeling much better. The next morning I gathered courage somehow and said that in order for me to make friends, I have to sometimes make the first move. I did invite two guys for friendship over the internet and only one replied. I said well, at least one did. Things have been going smoothly but I don't know why I can smell rejection already of late. We have not even met in person yet and this fear is already evident. I fear meeting in person just in case I don't meet his expectations and then rejection rears its ugly head at me again. This loneliness is killing me inside........I'll not give up. I'm determined to survive no matter what. Maybe I should go back to my poetry.

4:38 PM | |